Tuesday, November 1, 2011


When I have the worst day ever, that is when he speaks to me most. I seem to be in a mourning stage today... I was very upset and I didn't even seem to know why. I just kept quiet all day and wanted to cry most of the time. I started having thoughts that none of my friends love me and that they are all going to leave me... I was thinking about God and his existence...the lack of confidence I have. So many things were running through my head. I didn't even want to pray! Prayer is usually the first thing I mark off my list when I am having a bad day. For some reason I just don't ever want to look to him because sometimes my tiny mind perceives some really crazy things... Like, he made this happen to me... or the old, he cant help... Just things that Christians should never think. ANYONE should ever think. By the end of the day I was feeling that there is no point in showing people I love them because it wont impact them in any way... It will only break my heart. And by about 5 I was lacking that confidence and wanted to cry about multiple things... These things weren't things I usually think about on a daily basis! I was freaking my self out a little bit. So I had a plan!! I was going to go home and do all this homework I was assigned, pray pray pray and read my bible. The night continues... I am on facebook... Listening to songs about partying and drinking...  God speaks!!!!!!!

Just when I am at that point of deciding to not listen to his voice he speaks loud and clear into my ear. He speaks of inspiration, peace, love, hope, dreams.... He speaks the voice he has and the will of my life. He speaks of things that I already knew about but ways I can help! My geography teachers daughter is in Uganda for a year! She is a missionary. I am already inspired as it is to be a missionary... I don't exactly need much more motivation! I know that one day I will be on the mission field... So anyways back to my story... I wanted to see if she had posted any updates on their trip... She hadn't but she posted some super moving stuff. She was talking about faith and such! This wasn't exactly what I was moved by but the fact that she set her feet upon holy ground to be blessed and travel to great lengths to serve him!

Last week at church we had a prayer meeting. At the end of everything we just stood around the room and the mic was open for anyone who wanted to pray! At first we prayed for our selves and our lives. To be opened up and moved by him!! Then we prayed for a lady name Asia who was being held captive for her sharing her faith and was going to be killed. Then we prayed for her family of 5 kids and husband. After that it was all open mic. We were allowing God to speak into us and bring to us a message of prayer that could be shared with our group and let people see the prayers. I chose to pray for Ethiopia and my teachers daughter in Uganda. I just felt that God was speaking to me to pray for missionaries and Ethiopia anyway! Ethiopia is so poor. Some people barely ever get a good meal! It is horrible! So we prayed, I prayed! I took the mic with full confidence! I prayed for each missionary, Ethiopia, Uganda, the places that missionaries were at! People in this world need God's love and some may never hear it if we wouldn't pay to go on trips like this! Your lives are changed because God sent you as his living word to change someone else's life!

I just feel so blessed that I am loved by a great God who sent his son to die for me. I feel blessed that he is taking time to speak to me and make me see the power of prayer is greater than the power of sitting there in silence and thinking horrible thoughts. God wants to work in your life and he surely will if you allow him to. You were created to move and do his will. Your life is given to be used for his goodness. So right now as you are reading this pray for him to speak his will to you. Pray that you have to courage to go out and live his will out. Pray for all of his power to flow into you with love, mercy, peace, grace, hope!! Just ask him to have his way in your life so that when people look at you they see Jesus, not you!

Everyone have a great week!!!

Your kingdom come, your will be done, on earth as it is in heaven!

Friday, October 28, 2011

Showing thanks to those who mean most

As you may know, Thanksgiving is right around the corner! Usually I don't say thanks to those people in my life who I know for sure God has blessed me with, nor thank God for all he has given me. This year will be different! A few friends of mine feel very blessed to have Coach Stallard as our teacher and want to show her. This weekend or next weekend we are going to get together and make her a huge card. We have quite a few inside jokes in that class and we are going to include them in our card. Each of us are going to write something and we are going to use recorders to record our voices. She is a very touch woman so on the front we are going to write "What does it take to make Stallard cry?" and see if this sweet appreciation card does the trick! She is a very amazing person and relies on God for everything! I love how she brings faith into the classroom confidently! I love this woman and I feel very blessed that she is my teacher.
   God is crazy and sometimes brings certain people into your life in the weirdest ways. Once they are there, they are going to stay! I am simply so blessed!

Please pray for Coach Stallard's daughter. She is a missionary in Uganda and has been over there for a month now. She will be over there a year! Please pray many get touched by the hand of God and except him into their lives. Please pray for safety of the group and that they get changed as well and see how blessed they really are! (: 

Wednesday, October 26, 2011


Sometimes you just have to sit down and see how blessed you really are. So many men and women die for you everyday! Each day while you are sitting in a class room complaining about how cold it is, people are dying. In Iraq men are fighting with everything they have to protect me, you, her over there, him right here, and their own families. They are going months on end without seeing the people they love most. Some men never get to meet their children because they are born while they are gone and they get killed for your freedom.
  Take a second... Do you feel free? Do you look free? NO, most likely not. People here, and people in China look the same as us. They aren't completely free like us. No way! Just take time each day, wherever you are, and say "thanks!" to God for supplying you with what you have, people to fight and safety.
   My heart just crumbles sometimes to see that people are dying for me everyday when I have done nothing but be an American. The least I can do is say thanks. If you see them in a store, go up to them and thank them for all that they do. Trust me, it will make their day a whole lot brighter. Most people don't have the nerve to just go up to a soldier and say "Hey, thanks!" so YOU be the ONE in a crowd to stand out and do so.